5 Nov 2007

back in reality

my only thought was "was i ever going to see him again?". i didnt know, i still dont, but he sure stirred up feelings in me. i knew, when i decided not to do anything...i made a right choice and nothing happened..wlel except for the feelings...and yet i cant seem to let go of the question...how much does he like me? or does it really matter, since i decided to go with "nothing".
when i took off..it was raining and damp. dark. and when we got above the clouds i knew i was going to be ok without him. the sun will always come out!
..and i thought leaving him was hard. when i landed in my country, it was cold, snowing and even darker. and thats when the reality hit me. its either that i had stayed too long or that i could stay in my homeland. it was suffocating me. taking my energy that i had just reloded. but i took a breth in and never let it out..i just walked. and continued with where i had left relity for 10 days.

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