away on a long trip...

,,thats exactly what i want and need right now..a CHANGE in my life...a big change..not a small one. like a new dress or new pair of shoes or a b-day party invitation or a new friend...(even tho i would never say no to new pair of shoes or a dress or the rest of the stuff on the list) but what i need is a big change..or even a huge one.

School has worn me out, thats for sure. i need a time out from tallinn and tartu. mhh maybe a vacation. where to...mm...africa maybe. but i cant handle the bugs right now..and the insane heat. and even tho extreme living conditions would definitely be a change, i think i might go for something comfier.
mhh...what about asia. to be honest..i would avoid big crowds right now. yet..asia (like every other place) has places thats are secluded. i would definitely go for "clean" and lots of room and space. some peace and quiet. beautiful nature and some blooming cherry-trees. and i wouldnt say no to some good sushi. so asia sounds quite good.
there is am option to go to the states. i do have a visa for 10 years..so that would work. the good thing is that shoes and clothes are cheep in USA and the food...i can get it even for free,..(but im not talking about financial stuff right now and everything else concerning money). so where to? Miami?- sounds cool, but nah. Florida?- beautiful, but no. California?- really wanna go there,..but another time maybe. New Yourk?- YES!!! NY could really work right now. even tho yes, i said i dont want a big crowd and in this case we would be walking about HUGE crowd..i think a beautiful spring in NY could work a miracle right now! BUT..its not a spring yet, now is it...
Mountains, trees, rocks, water, a CABIN !!!!... yes...i would definitely like to go to a cabin. nice morning coffee ..wake up to a peace and quiet..just rest. ...but then the evening would come. and the darkness in the forest and the animals...and well...cos of everything that has been going on lately...im not a big fan of darkness or dark forests. unless there would be someone to go with. but there isnt. so--- it could have worked..
mhh...Italy??well a big grape arbor with a nice big mac-mansion is tempting..to walk around in a nice sunny spring-day..but as its been said...its not spring yet!! (tho yes..i know..italy has a different weather)..so maybe,..Toscany? actually Capri-island sounds good aswell..tho it is fancy and way-beautiful...and its the place to take sun..and just enjoy the beauty..and tho i said it wouldnt be a trip where id take sun all day long..im starting to change my mind..in this case!!...capri-island does sound beautiful! but if i would really end up sunbathing...i need to have a nice breeze. im definitely not up to sun-burning! but definitely no italian men!!!!

if there's anyone, feeling that they wanna compensate my trip..to on of those places or if theres an alternative,,..id appreciate it! :)
ot was good to dream for a sec :)...and now back to reality and real life that im trying to procrastinate/postpone--yet cant escape from it'!

no..the page is not unders construction...im just SO busy...im sry my dear faithful readers. ill update my blog ASAP i promise :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

ps. oh yeah and i got 2 pairs of shoes :D (from CHINA...heck ye (H) ) :) that made me very happy...ill write about it in my next blog aswell..
ok have to go now...to continue studying