I know, i know..i've started blogging!!! hehe
It's just that..so much is happening in my life and inside me that i wanna share it just cos it might help or encourage someone who is reading this (IF there is anyone :D ) and if not..it's goot to get it out myself cos then it can be seen in a new perspective and in another light, which is always a good thing
So yesterday evening and today (so far) have been emotional. Ok don't get a wrong image of me - i'm not VERY emotional usually..i mean..im not up and down, up and down, ...even tho it might seem so (cos in every new post i'm in different mood :D)..but actually in my heart im stable cos i trust God and my faith and hope is in Him..but He is doing something in me (not exctly sure what exactly it is but i know it has smth to do with how i see myself and how God sees me) and it's just natural (i like to think so) that when there's a deep-cleaning going on or a surgery, you react to different things different ways. Like when there's a lot of dust, it's just natural to sneeze or if there's a surgery going on it HURTS but it doen't mean one is on the edge of giving up even thinking that..so the same w/ me..even tho i might be in different moods different days etc, im stable :D (that sounded so funny) and it is VERy important to be able to control yourself no matter in what mood your are in. but im sure you know it already
also my mood-swings might be the result of my reading. You see im writing my thesis on human traficking and prostitution and even tho i HAVE to take a break after every ab 15/20 min still it's hard to read ab violence and rape and torture and humiliation all thro the day but at the same time i gotta say it's amazing how God has given me strenght to study it and do the reasearch
anyway, to the point now..
this morning i put on practice what my pastor preached ab on sunday and some stuff he taught us..
so as i opened my bible and read it.. i also noticed one other scripture:
Malachi 2:17
You have wearied the LORD with your words.
"Wearied him?" you ask. "How have we wearied him?"
You have wearied him by suggesting that the LORD favors evildoers since he does not punish them. You have wearied him by asking, "Where is the God of justice?"
I think this scripture is amazing. it's like BAAAAM...For all the ppl who sin and think oh whatever God will forgive me the scripture says that you weary Lord!! and for those who think God lets evil things happen and is not justice, the scripture says the same thing! YOU WEARY LORD WITH THIS TALK. and thinking. Are you serious??!?!?!? BAH
And then i started thinking - If i think God does not want the BEST for me, i also weary God cos after what He did for me (Since God did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won't God, who gave us Christ, also give us everything else? - [Rm8:32]) and i STILL think He does not want the BESTEST of the best for me..man that's just STUPID of me..
at the same time i know God is patient and He approaches everyone individually..so make sure you work on yourself and let GOD work on you..and all the rest will fall into place :) Yeb, God is THAT good and great! You just have to give Him the space to move!
Hope this encouraged you or helped you ..
It's just that..so much is happening in my life and inside me that i wanna share it just cos it might help or encourage someone who is reading this (IF there is anyone :D ) and if not..it's goot to get it out myself cos then it can be seen in a new perspective and in another light, which is always a good thing
So yesterday evening and today (so far) have been emotional. Ok don't get a wrong image of me - i'm not VERY emotional usually..i mean..im not up and down, up and down, ...even tho it might seem so (cos in every new post i'm in different mood :D)..but actually in my heart im stable cos i trust God and my faith and hope is in Him..but He is doing something in me (not exctly sure what exactly it is but i know it has smth to do with how i see myself and how God sees me) and it's just natural (i like to think so) that when there's a deep-cleaning going on or a surgery, you react to different things different ways. Like when there's a lot of dust, it's just natural to sneeze or if there's a surgery going on it HURTS but it doen't mean one is on the edge of giving up even thinking that..so the same w/ me..even tho i might be in different moods different days etc, im stable :D (that sounded so funny) and it is VERy important to be able to control yourself no matter in what mood your are in. but im sure you know it already
also my mood-swings might be the result of my reading. You see im writing my thesis on human traficking and prostitution and even tho i HAVE to take a break after every ab 15/20 min still it's hard to read ab violence and rape and torture and humiliation all thro the day but at the same time i gotta say it's amazing how God has given me strenght to study it and do the reasearch
anyway, to the point now..
this morning i put on practice what my pastor preached ab on sunday and some stuff he taught us..
so as i opened my bible and read it.. i also noticed one other scripture:
Malachi 2:17
You have wearied the LORD with your words.
"Wearied him?" you ask. "How have we wearied him?"
You have wearied him by suggesting that the LORD favors evildoers since he does not punish them. You have wearied him by asking, "Where is the God of justice?"
I think this scripture is amazing. it's like BAAAAM...For all the ppl who sin and think oh whatever God will forgive me the scripture says that you weary Lord!! and for those who think God lets evil things happen and is not justice, the scripture says the same thing! YOU WEARY LORD WITH THIS TALK. and thinking. Are you serious??!?!?!? BAH
And then i started thinking - If i think God does not want the BEST for me, i also weary God cos after what He did for me (Since God did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won't God, who gave us Christ, also give us everything else? - [Rm8:32]) and i STILL think He does not want the BESTEST of the best for me..man that's just STUPID of me..
at the same time i know God is patient and He approaches everyone individually..so make sure you work on yourself and let GOD work on you..and all the rest will fall into place :) Yeb, God is THAT good and great! You just have to give Him the space to move!
Hope this encouraged you or helped you ..
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