"best things in life arent things"

my best friend was right when she wrote that..
my life is a mess right now..or maybe even not..MY life isnt a mess but the ppl that are the closest to me, they are hurting so therefore my life is hurting..yet i find things in my everyday life that make me fight for the ones i love..and it seems to work..except that i wont settle with the situation im in right now..i want peace for everybody..but so..i understand that even tho my jewelry box is full of bling and my wordrobe has some really nice clothes in it and i LOVE my shoe collection...then still i cant find peace and real-full happiness b4 i see my close ones being happy.

miracles DO happen!!!

an average day..school school school...since i slept only 3 hours tonight...i thought about going home..skipping one class...but nah...decided to stay..with chocolate:)
so i just looked around in internet .. wasting time..but hey, i STAYED!!!:)

so the point is,,i just happened to see my friends comment,,, and it was an ansver to my prayer.. 7 and some years ago i started praying for this person...and NOW...it happened!!!!

whatever u r praying about or hoping..DONT give up...whether its 3 days, 3 years or 30 years,,, God answeres prayers!!!

back in reality

my only thought was "was i ever going to see him again?". i didnt know, i still dont, but he sure stirred up feelings in me. i knew, when i decided not to do anything...i made a right choice and nothing happened..wlel except for the feelings...and yet i cant seem to let go of the question...how much does he like me? or does it really matter, since i decided to go with "nothing".
when i took off..it was raining and damp. dark. and when we got above the clouds i knew i was going to be ok without him. the sun will always come out!
..and i thought leaving him was hard. when i landed in my country, it was cold, snowing and even darker. and thats when the reality hit me. its either that i had stayed too long or that i could stay in my homeland. it was suffocating me. taking my energy that i had just reloded. but i took a breth in and never let it out..i just walked. and continued with where i had left relity for 10 days.

w e l c o m e

so this blog is private but i guess yet for people to read. the thoughts and ideas i write here,,.are my thoughts and ideas so you can comment but not citicize. This is my world, enjoy!

-me