Faith is a commitment

My teacher from bibleschool where i went to (CIMC) wrote:

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Faith is basically commitment. After having invited the disciples to live with Him (Jesus), a process of commitment starts. We read several times that "they (disciples) believed", yet right after He tells them off for their unbelief - and then on the last evening He says to them "finally you believe" - they had been growing in their faith or commitment up to this evening where they finally realize who He is and wherefrom He has come.

Faith is a process - our commitment is growing as we remain in Him and keep His teachings - He occurs at times to us in e.g.. prayer answers - and we take steps of commitment towards Him.

Today, when i read this..all of a sudden all of it made sence. Just like a marriage is a commitment/a decision the same way is faith. In marriage..feelings will not last..you'll not stay in love forever..and there will come times where you cant stand it anymore and want out..but its still a decision to stay with the person you committed yourself to and not leave just cos its (insanely) hard (but that means the spouse is normal - not abusive or anything like that and works on the marriage aswell) . 

And i understand its the same way with faith. No-one says its going to be easy and if they have told you that sorry but they've lied! BUT ITS WORTH IT>> every fight, every stuggle..its so worth it! Paul says I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith (2 Tim 4:7).  Why does he say "i have kept my faith"..why not "i have been a real good christian" or something else like that..cos its not about that. God knows we're gonna make mistakes, He knows we're gonna fall..but He doesnt keep count on how many times we fall but how many times we stand up again after we fall and continued trying and fighting. Salomon says: even those make mistakes who  seek the Lord and want to find Him (apocrypha>> The Wisdom of Solomon 13:6). Thats also why you've heard me say and its kinda my trait-sentence already:) - I WILL NEVER GIVE UP! cos if i will then devil will win and i wont let that happen!-  so even if ive come to the point where im not fighting anymore to keep my faith (yes, ive been there few times in my life)..then i fight so that devil wouldnt win..and of course that means im fighting to keep my faith. and in the end..i still do it cos i love God. 

I (my teacher) would have said, "So get a grip of yourself man, and uphold your focus", but Paul would have said,
"Therefore my dear brothers, stand firm, let nothing move you, always give yourselves to the work of the Lord, cos you know that your labor in the Lord in not in vain" (1. Cor. 15:58)

Life is a fight, and you're wondering why its hard?! So keep on fighting .. for the Lord! One day you'll get answers to your 'why's (why did this happen, why me...) and you'll give answers. But right now its about 'Your life for Gods purpose' so put all on the table and live 100% for Him!

Now go read this: http://epistle.us/poetry/whenisayiamachristian.html